boy_wonder_88's Journal

11:34pm: Im bored with my life. Why you ask? i do the same thing everyday...sleep till 1pm...then work...come home and get on the fucking computer. I need something different. i need a goddamn car. which also means, i need another job. Yeah, so if you have anything to suggest that might be fun...let me know. Dad moved back in...for good this time. and its misserable. i know mom only had him move back in for money...way to be a gold digger mom. Senior year is less than 3 weeks away...i cant believe it...wierd to think about. The good thing is, this year the seniors are getting "undisclosed privelages" but we all know what they are. We get to leave for lunch now, which is cool because i dont have to endure the monotony of school lunch and i'll get a smoke break in the middle of the day! woo-hoo. im working on a more indepth post about whats been going on in my life...so keep looking, i should have it up w/ in the next couple of days. but for now, im going to go... i need to do something constructive...cleaning my room would be an excellent start.

3:44pm: WHY?
ive noticed that when i get bored, i find myself missing Greg. This sucks, cause i really shouldnt miss him. He fucked me over. But i know if he was like " Rich, i wanna try it again" i would do it in a minute....ahhh i need to find something to do.

10:38pm: Am i really that rude/immature?
So me, mom, sister, and dad were chillin setting off fireworks. well my dad lights a roman candle and holds it towards him thinking that he was holding it the right way. well i was like " OMG TROW IT! your holding it the wrong way." well he threw it but the way it was pointing we all had to run and watch as it shot at our house. Because it caused no harm/damage we all kinda laughed about it. Jokingly I said "never put fireworks in the hands of an idiot." wrong thing to say  my father got up in his face pointing his fat finger in my face and started yelling "dont call me a fucking idiot again." OK...what the fuck, lets say i did something like that...i would never hear the end of it. i was totally kidding with him. then my mother was like..."just the way you call me weird" Sometimes i just want to like...poison them or something. Then i naturally distanced myself from the fam and came inside cause it really pissed me off. So as i was sitting in my room my mom came in and lectured me on how immature and rude i can be. She gets pissed cause when im on the phone my friends are laughing in the background....then tells me how rude of me it is to talk to her when my friends are laughing. Hello you stupid slut, dont call me when im out....duh, we're going to be laughing and having fun. thats the point of me being out. Ew. parents are FREAKS

I was at Evin's again last night. the more time i spend with that boy, the more i like him. Theres something about him that makes me feel good. maybe its the way he tells me i'm cute. lol, but seriously...he's awesome. hehe...he's the only one that ever reads this, so im sure this is making him feel a lil awkward (hi Evin) BTW, im taking a hair dryer with me next time ;-)

This summer i feel like a goddamn nomad, i am RARELY home...like i come home for maybe a day at a time, not even...i shower at home sometimes. Its kinda funny cause i always come into work with my pillow and bags. they laugh at me. But seriously...i spend more time at other ppls house than i do at my own. and im not complaining. OH SHIT! Beach next week. Thursday, Friday and Saturday; I totally cant wait. I'll be down there with uncle Bob, Aunt Jo, Bobby and his gf. 6 ppl in that camper should be interesting but we shall see. The campground's website says they have wireless internet. i hope they're not lying cause i want to be able to use my computer down there. AHhhh....beach, good food, shopping, eye candy....sounds like a good w/e to me. Alrigiht my lil sluts, well ive rambled enough...will post tomorrow if i have anything interesting to talk about...which i should cause i have Emily's grad party to go to.
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let's get a lil DIRRTY

10:47pm: So today was pretty chill. Nothing spectacular. I'm at Aunt Jo and Uncle Bob's tonight. i love this place. its like...heaven. I noticed that most of this summer i have spent at other ppls houses and hardly anytime at my own. its pretty sweet. cause i hate my house.  Aunt Jo informed me on the drama between her and my mother. and why my mother hates my aunt and uncle so much is beyond me. they did so much for her when she needed help. theyve always been there. its bullshit. and i think its time mom and i had a talk. you dont bite the hand that feeds you. Jesus fucking christ, i make a move to lose the drama in my own personal life and my family is just as bad. god...i wish i was going to college this year. but the thought that i only really have one more year to deal with this shit is rather releaving i mean...ive made it thus far.

11:34pm: Tell people what they want to hear then do what you want

So when i realized the ive left my LJ go to hell, i thought it'd be nice to update it some. well...i also thought it'd be nice to have a half way meaningful post. So here goes.

Ive decided to leave all my drama behind. and yes, that means im kind of cutting ppl out of my life. This is semi selfish, i realize that. However...i cant keep trying to please ppl and let myself get walked all over. I'm just tired of all the bullshit. and thats all it is; immature, unnecessary, AVOIDABLE shit. I've come to far to deal with all this. IM DONE. and as far as "relationships" go. I'm taking a good friends advice and staying single. I fucking need time to finally get over these assholes that take advantage of me.

Seven years of practical freedom coming to an end. thats right, my parents are getting back together. Fucking 7 years. my mother and i have been struggling, yes. and i know i give up a lot to make things work around here. but all that is much better than living with my father again. I dont want to go back to the fighting, constant drunkedness, and living with a complete asshole. We got rid of my dad the first time, then got rid of Pete...and now she's getting with my dad again. I fucking hate it. there is only one good thing about him coming back, we are moving to a HOUSE and we will not always be strapped for money. the funny thing is...im pretty sure thats the only reason my mom is going back to him. I mean, she did kinda play Pete out for money when he was in P-burg. altho...she had EVERY right to. God, that reminds me how much i hate him. Continuing on my hatred of father rant. When we move into the new house, a rule is going to be made that i cant have guys over. period. And to thing my mother is going to let this happen??? Just because my father cant deal with the fact that im gay doesnt mean he's going to restrict my life. i am going to be 18 in less than 5 months. he can kiss my ass. I'm going to have over who i want, when i want. and thats that. 

On a better note, Evin and i FINALLY met. We had a great time...he's amazing...love that kid. Too bad he's going to Portland and neither of us want relationships. Oh well, shit happens...and why ruin a good friendship? I gotta get my fucking license so i can go see him more. i for serious had a good  time w/ him. I want to get him out here so he can meet some of my other friends.


Good things bout the new house. My room is "secluded" and i have my own entrance and porch thingy. Central Air. MORE ROOM. No wheels. finally out of HB.

Bad things...Coatesville school district...but oh well, ima drive to TV anyhow. (BTW, im OFFICIALLY a SeNiOr now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

So IN A WAY, things are looking up. i guess right now the only thing i have to bitch about is my father. Could be worse, i mean...look at the shit ive been thru in the past year. 

OH! and im quitting smoking. yay or me.

I dont know what else to bitch about at this point. (not due to lack of material, i could go on forever) but i dont want to be any more of an annoying whiney bitch.

~Aint no otha man~

4:17pm: YAY! im posting in my journal. lol. OK, so ive met the perfect boy...he's hot, he's funny, he's a sweetheart and did i mention perfect? Guys...i really like him. His name is Rich, yes the fact that we have the same name could be complicated, however...its kinda hot. Lyke...you have no idea how bad i just want to be w/ him...holding eachother. I have to thank Niq for getting things started tho...cause w/o him i would have never made a move in the direction of a relationship w/ Rich. At this moment, we are not dating...but im trying to go down to philly on saturday to meet him...so who knows. What i do know is that i am happy, and im pretty sure he's happy too. This is what i need. someone who cares about me like i care about them, someone FAITHFUL! But yea, im really falling for Rich right now. HAHA...the other night i was at Turkey Hill with Kasey and Cassi and Keri, well i tried jumping up on Kasey's back and i ripped my PJS...not just any rip, 1. i was wearing a thong 2. they ripped all the way up my leg. it was fucking hillarious. Then i got to wear Kari's Kapri Sweats....and my junk was def all popping out. but it was fun cause John Chris and Julia came up for a lil bit. OMG...Cassi tried to run Josh over...haha. Speaking of ex's...Tom made fun of Rich, then proceeded to call Cassi a "cunt" that fucker has it coming...i will cut his throat. And Cameron, that ugly prick is gon get shot...he best not fuck w/ Mikey...cause not only will cassi kick his ass, ima burn his house down. School sucks, got sent to the office for my jeans...told them i was poor and couldnt afford a new pair...haha...funny, cause i had designer clothes on and told her i was poor. lol...my mom is, im not. but any whoooo...ill try to update you some more tomorrow.

3:32pm: Fuck man
so i cant really celebrate like i wanted to today...but this w/e is going to obe fucking awesome...Which BTW, a million and 1 ppl are trying to make plans w/ me...Cassi Kristy and i have had plans for "4:20" w/e since like a month ago...and im not going to do stupid shit over getting high. GRRR! ok...well ill update again later...just got home from school so i wanna just chill for a bit. ttyl

10:24pm: an hour and a half
So the best day of the year is tomorrow...which technically is an hour and a half away. I'v already began preperations. Had Tom make me a tinny today, but it was shit...so i tried to make one...and its pretty sweet. smoked tobacco out of it just to test it. Im proud of myself...my first tinny and its the shit. lol. OK well heres the scoop with my Josh drama. Rachel bitched him out big time, then called me. I was like "oh no...well were kinda on not so bad terms right now." and Rachel said she would talk to him. Well...she did and he talked a lot of shit on me...so he's been trying to call all night to talk. well i picked up once and kinda blew him off...so he called like 4 other times and i put that "ignore call" feature to use. I decided if he's gonna trash me behind my back, then im not going to talk to him period...i dont need dick that bad. GSA meeting today, that went awesome...although i was in a really hyper ADD mood and would not shut up and was super spastic. We got shit planned for DOS next week, we're gonna rock it so damn hard...im really excited reguardless of the shit ppl want to say about it. Evin...if you read this...i miss you dude...get the fuck online! Getting stoked for Philly Pride too. It's going to be an amazing time. BTW, i forgot to mention, Mom met Ryan Dunn from Jackass yesterday...and she also got the pics of the new place...and let me tell you...it is a whole hell of a lot better than here. It's acctually nice. and my room is going to be like 1/2 the size of my entire tin can. have i mentioned how i have the best friends in the WHOLE world? Well i do...no matter what they are all there to talk to me. I never have a bad day, cause they make me uber happy. Miss Cassandra....lol...you crack me up you hooker. We have such an abusive friendship. my arms hurt like hell...and i think there are teeth marks on my shoulder...havnt looked though. OWE...my butt hurts...this chair is so uncomfortable...OMFG, the simple life is on. PARIS I LOVE YOU! By the way, i got a 95 on my paper for culinary...and i think im really rambling here...so i will post tomorrow. Love you whores!!!

10:43pm: PS
Thursday is 4:20

7:39pm: oh shiiiit
soooo...I've decided its time to take a break from "relationships"...now dont get me wrong, im not going celebit...but i need time to concentrate on things that are really important right now. Things like school, my health, and my family. I have a lot to think about with me moving and all. I know in the long run, it will benefit my mom and sister...and me refusing to go is reidiculous. SO i have decided i am going to move with my mom and sister. I've been talking to some pretty cool ppl from Pennridge and i think ill like it for the most part...i dont think it could be any worse then Twin Valley. Another good thing is I will be closer to philly!!! lol...here i come fag haven. On another note, i met a really cool guy named Evin...he's really super nice...and im not going to talk him up to much...(casue i know your reading this Evin)...and i dont want to let his head get too big. lol. Kidding boyyy...he's been really cool to talk to and we gonna try to hang out...ill give him a tour of the fucking boondocks. lol. AHHHH school. WTF man...i procrastinate sooo bad...and now tonight, i have to stay up ALLL night working on shit that HAS to be done...not looking foreward to it. And here i am...writing in this...NOT doing my work and talking on the phone...fucking beautiful. You can see school is # 1 on my list...Fucking GRRR! Well...josh and i did the deed...again tonight...but in a friendly fashion...needless to say, it was amazing. Then my mom kicked him out cause he said some fucked up shit. I warned him though. Hopefully things dont end badly with him...well worse then what they are. Thomas is attempting to win me over again...and im scared he might be somewhat successful. I think i will ALWAYS love him...and he knows it. If i cant be with him, he will always always be a good friend...OHHH my...i didnt think id really get all that into this thing...well...i guess im hooked now...so ill keep you posted

1:46am: YAY
so...i finally got one of these things...thanks Evin. lol. but its uber late and as much as i would absolutlt LOVE to stay up alll night...im going to bed. I will be on tomorrow w/o a doubt.